Shampoo & Dirty Jeans

A week and a half ago, I participated in Yeah Write’s first ever Super Challenge! The piece below was written for that competition, and I was one of sixteen selected to move on to Round 2. 🙂

I had to write a maximum 1000-word personal essay with the topic provided. I was in group three, so my topic was Hair.


Shampoo & Dirty Jeans

“Oh my god!”

“Did you see that?”

Girlish whispers and gasps echoed behind me.

My long hair was moving, but there was no wind in the music room. I had not shaken or swished my head either. It was stirring of its own accord.

I stared straight ahead. For all they knew, I was completely oblivious to them, but I wasn’t deaf either. I knew the mutters and the accusations. I knew what would come next.


I sat on the edge of the seat in the nurse’s office and pushed my hands between my thighs. My eyes focused on my faded blue jeans. The holes in the knees and frayed edges at the hem reminded me how I got here in the first place.

Schoolyard bullies tested boundaries on those less fortunate. The social class system of junior high ensured it was the way of the world. For as long as I could remember, I was a target.

“You know Helen, the librarian’s student assistant?” the nurse asked me.

I nodded.

“She had a similar problem about a week and a half ago. Big as yours too.”

“I know,” I said into my hands. I shifted my weight and inched closer to the edge.


My hair lay across my shoulders and back in a sea of brown. It was thick, unkempt, and long enough to touch the bottom of the seat. It frequently caught on the nails on the chair back.

It was as much a physical reminder of my wealth and means as my clothing was.

Tears welled in my eyes. I wanted to run my fingers through my hair or lay back far enough to massage my scalp on the edge of the chair, but I also had no desire to draw further attention to myself. Instead, I lifted my flute to my lips and released an unsteady vibrato with the rest of the woodwind section. I could hardly see the notes on the sheet of music and could barely play through my sniffling.

At least while we played, the relentless gossips ceased.


A tear rolled down my cheek, and I sniffled.

“It’s okay, sweetie,” the nurse said. “They’re not hard to get rid of. There’s some special shampoo even.”

I moved my head a bit and gave her a half-smile. I know, I thought, but we can’t afford it. We’ve tried all the home remedies – vinegar, Vaseline, sitting really close to the heater with a hot towel on our heads. Nothing works.

I said nothing, though. I couldn’t say it, because as soon as I called myself poor, then I would be accepting that as truth.


As soon as the bell sounded, I ran out of the music room, down the stairs, through the gym, and straight for the lonely bathroom stall outside the cafeteria. Even though no one followed me directly, I could still hear their disgust.

I made sure the room was locked and turned my hair upside down over the toilet.

I ran my fingernails through my scalp and watched in horror as the infestation fell into the toilet bowl below. Every nail caught one of the little beasties. I tried in abject failure to swallow back my sobs while I flicked them each into the water.

“Filthy bitch!” I heard outside.

Girls were knocking on the bathroom door and screaming at me. The anonymity spurred them to say things they normally would not.

“White trash!” others screamed. “Stupid ho!”

I looked in the john and saw fifteen of those tiny insects there – bulbous and lifeless. Yet I still itched. The bastards were multiplying at an alarming rate.


“You need to pick her up,” the nurse said through the hand piece. “She won’t be allowed back at school until after the lice have been treated.”

Her tone sounded accusatory to me.

It hadn’t been my fault, but then the nurse didn’t know that, and I certainly couldn’t tell her.

My brain went into overdrive thinking about how it all happened. The boundaries had been crossed last week. Instead of insults and hair pulls, the girls took a new approach to bullying. While two held me to my desk, another plucked a single louse from Helen’s hair and planted it straight into mine. It burrowed deep before I could get to it.

It would be eight hours before Mom got home and started her “home treatment” that day. Ten days later, and we still hadn’t gotten rid of it.


Even though we couldn’t afford it, we bought the foul-smelling stuff from Wal-Mart.

The next week we went without gas.


15 thoughts on “Shampoo & Dirty Jeans

  1. What a powerful story. I love how you built this, I knew what was coming, yet I was still surprised by the actions.
    I wish it was possible to travel back to our young selves and offer some comfort or reassurance in those painful moments.


    1. I couldn’t agree more, Nancy! I made it through all of it a stronger person, but at the time, I was miserable. Thanks so much for reading! I’ll be reading all the submissions now in my spare time since I’ve finished round 2. 😄


  2. I haven’t stopped thinking about this piece since I read it the other day. There is so much that is amazing about it. And it is so frighteningly real – the horror of how awful one human can be to another and the shockingly vicious act of bullying- never would have thought one person could/ would think to do such a thing to another. So good but so horrendous.


    1. Thank you very much! I am the biggest opponent of bullying and think that despite some strides being taken, we have barely scratched the surface of it all. I’m just glad I wasn’t born into the digital age or things might have been so very different.

      Liked by 1 person

  3. Very well written and am sending you a greatly deserved hug! I, too, was bullied relentlessly and the scars definitely run deep. Yes, the endless, torturous days made us stronger, far more compassionate and better people overall but the shameful memories are still palpable all these years later. From the detailled accounts you have shared, I suspect you would agree. No person should ever have this kind of control over another. Parents, teach your children well.


    1. I agree wholeheartedly! The shame is that most of the time the parents don’t even know what terrors they reign on others. I’m so sorry you were bullied as well! Giving you return hugs. 😊


  4. Oh how I hate mean girls! It’s such a well-written essay; it made me feel a lot of anger. I am so sorry it’s non-fiction. I hope something humiliating happened to those girls at some point in their lives. Grrr.


    1. Thank you for the very kind words! I’d like to think somehow my life is richer than theirs but I can’t confirm it. All I know is that I found the happiness I so ached for then. ❤


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s